Orders

I have been ordered by the government to report to a school for travel-guides. What can I say... I nothing about anything that they write I should know before "applying". I feel somehow that they could have asked. I am not in a position to say no so it is a formality, nevertheless a polite formality.

No matter, I'll need to get a car in order to attend. I have one, but due to the omniuos spectre that is called EU certification they will soon take it and condemn it. I also need new tires...

I just don't know what to do anymore, I feel that I have already done anything that I can do, should do, wanted to do. And I just don't want to do anything anymore. I'm bored, intensely bored. Bored to the point of suicide. I suppose this travel-guide thing will alleviate my boredom. It just feels so pointless. I am never ever going to guide any tourist anywhere, that's a promise. Still, someone has decided that I shall learn how to do it. I think this is part of the reason for my surrender. There is no point in attempting to do anything at all as long as ultimately other people decide what you are going to do anyway. And I don't trust other people.

So I guess I'll just follow orders. I'm so tired, I just feel like sleeping and eating. I can never understand how happy I'd be if it weren't for civilization.

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