As every

number in my life dwindles to its inevitable zero I watch in fascination as if watching some science experiment and not me. When zero is reached in exactly 8 days from now there will be an interim of another 5, where I will exist on the point zero. From there I hope to see myself rise as a phoenix from the ashes. Only through the willful destruction of everything can something new be built, everything else is patching. I don't believe in patching, I believe in new eras. Time to inaugerate the millenium, in 2012 solar flare activity is probably going reach maximum. I'll be like a sun, and five years into my third eleventh year cycle I too will reacch maximum output. I reached maximum ouput in my last eleven year cycle and then diminished. Expansion and contraction is the nature of everything, the drive towards equilibrium is infinite but can never be attained in a complex system, basically -everything. Order and the end of chaos is the business of science, and on some very simple systems this goal nears achievment, quantum computing. The mastering of quantum technology can be seen as spiritual, and indeed -many do. Not many scientists but that's beside the point. The nature of quants to be everything and nothing can appear magical and religious, and as the old saying goes -any technology of sufficient sophistication will appear to be magical. Say the transformation of energy into matter and visa verca. Now I must discover my own spiritual version of zero point energy, I must convert my ideas into cash, and as I discuss ideas with other creative people I realize that they have little concern for this enterprise.

To me it has become the central dogma of my life. And no idea I will ever have, will ever have any worth to me but its cash value. I've had too many ideas. I throw away a thousand perfectly good ideas between breakfast and lunch on a daily basis. I no longer bother to neither remember nor write down, I used to. And as I've been sorting through box upon box of papers with ideas while preparing to move, I also sort through letters of rejection from a who's who of norwegian entertainment industry. Most contain no opinon whatsoever regarding my ideas, but instead discuss budgets. Our budget for the next two years have been committed to, call us back then. Too expensive. Interesting but unprofitable. Your writing is bad and redundant.
Whoops.

And so now the profitability of any idea is the first thing I wonder about it, if yes, then the required investment and nescesary infra-structure, then who will invest. It is this last part which always crashes any good idea. I have no network, and those networks I know exist seem to favour bad taste to innovation every time. I don't do bad taste so I'm never going to get funding in norway.

So I look abroad, there innovation is allowed and is seen as a natural part of showbiz and society at large, the problem is network. I neither am connected to one nor do I know of anyones existence. I am therefore forced to knock on the front door of the big international entertainment industries and we all know what that is like. Unfunny.

So I'm not actually going to do that until I can deliver the whole shebang, budgets, prewiz, the 8th draft, the people who can and can't do it. Every trace of the amateur fully erased. It takes quite a bit of time to one-man-band big budget movies, years actually.

I saw V for Vendetta yesterday. Pretty neat for the first two thirds -then massive structural collapse and ireconsailable tempo errors ensued, as they do in most movies. The last act is the worst as I've always said.

cheers

b